One day

All I wish is for a day
Yesterday today n tomorrow all put in one
Spend it all on watching  your fingers play,
With the  words that have held me for so long

Pull these strings, till they break
Sing all those songs, that got us here today
Take off our secrets n put them out to dry,
While we dance, in the pouring rain

And all i need is this day
To use all my courage and be afraid
To look you in the eye and stay that way
Until I am sure, you know what i want to say

Its been too long and it's  been too late
This is how it is , when we are both so far away
But now we have been given this day
And I would die before i throw  it all away

So tell me,  when you want me to stop.
I know its a bit too much to take, but its all I got
Here I am again with my pen and paper,
But this time  all the words I have are not gonna  be enough


And all I need is this day
To use all my courage and be afraid
To look you in the eye and stay that way
Until I am sure, you know what i want to say

Inspired by a conversation with a hood friend

Stupid Cupid

You can crawl through these nights
Unnoticed, quite as you like
I'm looking  behind my back
Staying out of site

I know that feeling, i remember the first time
Dont know what hit me, but I've been this way ever since that night
Cant be by myself, looking for trouble.
Knocking on every pretty door, until i find the one


Stop, aim and shoot
You might miss this time
I'm  putting down  my foot
But it seems i can run but i cant hide
Stupid cupid, wont let me be wild.

And in every moment a gaze is shared
The question  is right out there
Do you want to play this game?
You dont have to say the truth,
 All I care about is, if you dare

I know she's out there
Trying to hunt me down
All I can do is pretend that i dont care
And get lost in the crowd


Stop, aim and shoot
You might miss this time
I'm  putting down  my foot
But it seems i can run but i cant hide
Stupid cupid, wont let me be wild.


Inspired by music video of ed sheeran's give me love

The will

In your eyes I see deceit 
The power to drown my soul and bring me to my knees 
Every time I go out to battle, 
The scars they write a story that is incomplete 

It is not about who i am anymore 
It is who I've become 
Faded yes, but not so jaded yet 
Calm, but not any less fierce

This silence is made,
For the ticking of the clock
You feel your alone,
But you are most often not

The flashes of past glories
The stories that intertwine .
And after that restless sleep
You and I have the will to survive 

The gift of insanity

In the midst of these waves of conflict
The choices, the consequences
The howling  of questions 
The answers  to be accepted or ignored

One thing that makes it all possible
Humour so dead  serious, that it begs for silence
You may not agree but in certainty 
It is  the gift of insanity 

Been there once,  been there twice,  thrice
If you look closely, not too much but in glances
You can see it in my eyes 
Have i come too far,  or has it all just began

By now you know, you could be me
But for circumstance
I wish you luck, on all the other illusions 
I for one, have the gift of insanity

In the end

The only sound is of the rain
These four walls , dissolve my pain
I close my eyes to wish,
This was my eternity

These faces don't hide behind masks
They are pillars that stand,Through it all
We may be seas and lands apart
But we know together we take the fall

Loose control or be the guide
Like light houses we come around
For what we have can be seen afar
There is no need to make a sound

Some say they have lived ,
with what they fill in their coffins
And some like us
We have lived ,
when we know we'll meet again

Christmas gal

Christmas gal

A thousand miles away from home
I think about you on this day, more than ever
The stars are out and shining so bright
Begging me to make a wish,
so I can make myself feel a little better

Its cold outside and your the only thing ,thats keeping me warm
The christmas lights sparkle as I pass the doorstep of every home
I take a look inside,
I see everything that I want for my own

But if there is only one thing I can have
I would ask that merry old man
Take me with you over the mountains covered with snow
There is a girl waiting for me to show up, standing under a mistletoe

She doesn't know I am coming
But I know she will wait
She sings songs of miracles hoping,
 one would come her way
And tonight wont pass like any other day.
The wait is over , its Christmas day

The presents will take their places under the Christmas tree
And stalkings will fill themselves, have a little faith, you will see

So what do you say my merry old man
I,ve packed my bags, are you ready to go
Cause there is a girl waiting for me to show up, standing under a mistletoe

The last words

Im sitting on a cold cold floor
Beating up my mind till its sore
I want to remember your face
Between these nights that have turned into my days

I am fighting for every breath I take
Holding on to the last bit of my faith
Your voice drowning in the the chaos inside my head
As I gasp for the last words you said

I am no stranger to being alone
Have no fear left that I Havnt known
I am standing on the edge and I am losing my soul
For every truth has a hope of being a lie, I've been told

Of all the things I had to walk away from
I know I cant take my time I have to run
Because if I remember even a glimpse of you then
I will be tormented by those lost words again